Holy shit you guys, I drew a thing!
This is basically a visual representation of what I feel my Tumblr experience is like. I don’t talk much to the people I admire here (mostly artists and writers). I’ll often go to type a message to one of them or reply to a post, then end up retyping it 20 times before eventually deleting it because I can’t get the wording just right or I’m just too damn nervous.
On the odd occasion that I do end up sending the message, it’s often something along the lines of “OMG THIS THING YOU POSTED IS SO GREAT I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!!!! :D” and then I end up worrying if I’m coming off a bit too intense and I start hyperventilating. I know, I have issues.

Holy shit you guys, I drew a thing!

This is basically a visual representation of what I feel my Tumblr experience is like. I don’t talk much to the people I admire here (mostly artists and writers). I’ll often go to type a message to one of them or reply to a post, then end up retyping it 20 times before eventually deleting it because I can’t get the wording just right or I’m just too damn nervous.

On the odd occasion that I do end up sending the message, it’s often something along the lines of “OMG THIS THING YOU POSTED IS SO GREAT I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!!!! :D” and then I end up worrying if I’m coming off a bit too intense and I start hyperventilating. I know, I have issues.

batwynn:

Blanket Snuggles.

batwynn:

Blanket Snuggles.

I could honestly watch this all day.

I could honestly watch this all day.

iswyn:

usedupshiver:

awyeeeeeeeeeeeeee:

Let me point something out here. Loki’s in pain. Cant you tell? The way he grits his teeth as he sits. The way he grips onto the car. (it’s not shown here.) You can see the purple bags under his eyes and how prominent his cheek bones are. The Avengers he was in so much pain it makes my heart heart.
((BUT THAT IS ALSO HOW GOOD OF AN ACTOR TOM IS.))

Damn right he is. And you just know he’s not the kind to show that if it can be avoided. (Except when he’s deliberatly exaggerating, like after Thor pulls him from the plane, all “OMG THOR SHIT MY BACK BE CAREFUL YOU ASSHOLE”.)
Another thing it took me a while to notice: the way he almost doubles up and keels over leaving the tesseract chamber. His mindcontrolled agent literally has to run up and support him out.
Yup. That’s one broken Loki.


Since I’m reasonably sure the blue-eyed Loki theories are wrong, and Joss Whedon doesn’t do things like this accidentally, I really wonder what the backstory is.
I mean, he was tortured, sure. But why does tortured Loki do as he’s told? Did he intend to actually take over the planet? Is he really -that- afraid of Thanos? 
Inquiring minds want to know!

Alright, here’s my theory. I don’t think he was mind-controlled, although he may have been a little bit manipulated. Torture does seem likely. They broke him a little bit, not just physically, but mentally. Whispered things in his ear, like how Thor “threw [him] into an abyss” when in actuality he let go and fell, or that he should be king and hey, if he can’t have Asgard, why not rule Midgard? Despite the fact that he previously stated that he never wanted the throne, and I believe he meant it. I mean, why WOULD he want to rule? A trickster god? It wouldn’t suit him. Too much responsibility, having to deal with all those people, all that boring king shit he’d have to do uuuuggghhh that’s just no fun at all. Loki would be most happy if he’s free to do what he wants and go where he wants. If he desires control, he will whisper the right words in the right people’s ears and make things happen from the shadows. That is his way.
When Thanos is all like, “Here, have this sceptre, now go down to Midgard and get me the Tesseract and in return you can rule the Earth”, I think Loki would have jumped at the chance to get away from Thanos and thus, stop being tortured. Also, there would be that little voice in his head saying, “Yes, you SHOULD rule Midgard. You DESERVE to, it is your RIGHT.” Which he has been manipulated into thinking.
I think a lot of the things Loki says about ruling is just the stuff that was put in his head by Thanos, but I don’t think his heart is really in it. A part of him knows he doesn’t really want this, but he’s going along with it in order to save his own skin.
To be honest, from what I know about what Loki can do, I think he could have done a much better job at taking over the Earth. Perhaps Coulson was right when he told him “You lack conviction”.
Also, he didn’t seem all that upset when he lost. He just seemed exhausted and in pain.
Yep, that’s what I think.

iswyn:

usedupshiver:

awyeeeeeeeeeeeeee:

Let me point something out here. Loki’s in pain. Cant you tell? The way he grits his teeth as he sits. The way he grips onto the car. (it’s not shown here.) You can see the purple bags under his eyes and how prominent his cheek bones are. The Avengers he was in so much pain it makes my heart heart.

((BUT THAT IS ALSO HOW GOOD OF AN ACTOR TOM IS.))

Damn right he is. And you just know he’s not the kind to show that if it can be avoided. (Except when he’s deliberatly exaggerating, like after Thor pulls him from the plane, all “OMG THOR SHIT MY BACK BE CAREFUL YOU ASSHOLE”.)

Another thing it took me a while to notice: the way he almost doubles up and keels over leaving the tesseract chamber. His mindcontrolled agent literally has to run up and support him out.

Yup. That’s one broken Loki.

Since I’m reasonably sure the blue-eyed Loki theories are wrong, and Joss Whedon doesn’t do things like this accidentally, I really wonder what the backstory is.

I mean, he was tortured, sure. But why does tortured Loki do as he’s told? Did he intend to actually take over the planet? Is he really -that- afraid of Thanos? 

Inquiring minds want to know!

Alright, here’s my theory. I don’t think he was mind-controlled, although he may have been a little bit manipulated. Torture does seem likely. They broke him a little bit, not just physically, but mentally. Whispered things in his ear, like how Thor “threw [him] into an abyss” when in actuality he let go and fell, or that he should be king and hey, if he can’t have Asgard, why not rule Midgard? Despite the fact that he previously stated that he never wanted the throne, and I believe he meant it. I mean, why WOULD he want to rule? A trickster god? It wouldn’t suit him. Too much responsibility, having to deal with all those people, all that boring king shit he’d have to do uuuuggghhh that’s just no fun at all. Loki would be most happy if he’s free to do what he wants and go where he wants. If he desires control, he will whisper the right words in the right people’s ears and make things happen from the shadows. That is his way.

When Thanos is all like, “Here, have this sceptre, now go down to Midgard and get me the Tesseract and in return you can rule the Earth”, I think Loki would have jumped at the chance to get away from Thanos and thus, stop being tortured. Also, there would be that little voice in his head saying, “Yes, you SHOULD rule Midgard. You DESERVE to, it is your RIGHT.” Which he has been manipulated into thinking.

I think a lot of the things Loki says about ruling is just the stuff that was put in his head by Thanos, but I don’t think his heart is really in it. A part of him knows he doesn’t really want this, but he’s going along with it in order to save his own skin.

To be honest, from what I know about what Loki can do, I think he could have done a much better job at taking over the Earth. Perhaps Coulson was right when he told him “You lack conviction”.

Also, he didn’t seem all that upset when he lost. He just seemed exhausted and in pain.

Yep, that’s what I think.

Fan Fiction Dependency

I’ve become dependent on FrostIron fan fiction. Like a god damn drug. I first discovered FrostIron at the beginning of this year and ever since then, I’ve been reading it every day. It proved to be most effective in getting me out of my own head (I have severe clinical depression, and my main coping strategy is keeping myself distracted as often as possible).

Unfortunately, I’m not able to find new fics to read as much as I used to, due to the fact that I’ve read just about all the ones that appeal to me. I’ve been through the list of all the fics tagged as Loki/Tony Stark on AO3 three times (of which there’s currently a total of 3922), and I check for new fics multiple times throughout the day. I’m subscribed to close to 100 unfinished fics. But it’s no longer enough to keep me occupied for all hours of the day as it once did.

Just today, I found myself with no fics to read and nothing else to do and for the first time in months, I got really seriously depressed. I was crying and I wanted to die and that god damn voice in my head came back telling me what a useless, pathetic shithead I am (not the kind of voice a schizophrenic person would have, just me being hateful towards myself).

Then you know what happened? I checked AO3 and by some miracle I found a good FrostIron fic that I hadn’t read yet. And just like that, everything was okay again.

If you write FrostIron fan fiction, I want you to know… YOU KEEP ME SANE. Literally. Thank you xx

mmmagpie:

LOKI: AGENT OF ASGARD #6AL EWING (W)Jorge Coelho (A)Cover BY LEE GARBETTThe MARCH to AXIS continues!• Loki’s back from the Tenth Realm - and facing his greatest challenge yet! Can you say… DOCTOR DOOM?• But with Valeria Richards in the mix - who’s the hero of the story? And who’s the villain?• A new jumping-on point for the series fans literally can’t get enough of! Grab it while stocks last, true believer!• And looming in the wings: AXIS!32 PGS./Rated T+ …$2.99

There’s something about seeing Loki on his knees in chains that is sexy as hell. If only that were Tony Stark holding the end of the chain, that would be even better! ;)

mmmagpie:

LOKI: AGENT OF ASGARD #6
AL EWING (W)
Jorge Coelho (A)
Cover BY LEE GARBETT
The MARCH to AXIS continues!
• Loki’s back from the Tenth Realm - and facing his greatest challenge yet! Can you say… DOCTOR DOOM?
• But with Valeria Richards in the mix - who’s the hero of the story? And who’s the villain?
• A new jumping-on point for the series fans literally can’t get enough of! Grab it while stocks last, true believer!
• And looming in the wings: AXIS!
32 PGS./Rated T+ …$2.99

There’s something about seeing Loki on his knees in chains that is sexy as hell. If only that were Tony Stark holding the end of the chain, that would be even better! ;)

batwynn:

Tony went scuba diving since he can’t with the reactor. 

THE BODY SWAP TROPE!! It’s one of my all-time favourites. I get excited every time it happens in any medium (film, tv, fiction, comics, whatever) and I ESPECIALLY love it when it happens to characters I LOVE, like these two <3

The actual zodiac signs

fabulink:

Aries: really fucking arrogant
Taurus: bossy as fuck
Gemini: two-faced spawn of satan
Cancer: kinda nice and cries a lot
Leo: talks way too much
Virgo: overanalyzes everything
Libra: the only good sign tbh
Scorpio: has a collection of knives
Sagittarius: keep your opinions to yourself
Capricorn: lucifer’s servant
Aquarius: hella weird and judgemental
Pisces: way naive and probably gay

I am a Scorpio, and I do in fact have a collection of knives!! ACCURATE!

I’m just slightly concerned that my mother is apparently lucifer’s servant.

geekinglikeaboss:

When you are an Introvert, people think you aren’t happy enough, aren’t talkative enough, aren’t friendly enough…

When you are an Extrovert, people think you are too excitable, too loud, talk too much…

There somewhere along the line, someone deiced there was one right way to be a human being, and the sole definition of it was not anyone else.

THIS ^^^

I am an Introvert. These are the most common things that are said to me:

"You’re really quiet."

"You don’t talk much, do ya?"

"Cheer up!"

"You look sad."

I KNOW that I don’t talk much, YOU DON’T HAVE TO TELL ME THIS. If I have something worth saying I’ll say it but I don’t feel the need to say every little thing that pops into my head. And I WASN’T SAD SO STOP TELLING ME THAT I AM BECAUSE IT’S PISSING ME OFF.

And whatever you do… DO NOT TELL ME TO SMILE. You want me to smile? GIVE ME A REASON TO. I DO NOT SMILE ON COMMAND.

Phew. This is the second time today I’ve seen a post and it’s just opened the flood gates for an issue that I’ve had and needed to get out. I feel better now :)

swingsetindecember:

i wish more people said that being single is normal

and you’re not going to meet and marry someone

and that’s fine

and if marriage happens, it happens. and it’s not the next big ticket to check off in life’s checklist

because not everyone meets someone they want to marry. and that’s normal

you’re not broken or unfulfilled if you are single

THANK YOU.

I’m 28 years old and I have been single my whole life. I’m not all that happy about it presently, but it used to make me downright depressed, to the point where I considered suicide (that wasn’t the only reason, but it was a major contributing factor). I couldn’t help but feel that being single for so long meant that there was something very wrong with me.

Being told things like, “You’ll find someone some day” or “There’s someone out there for you” just made me feel worse. Because first of all, it confirms the fact that most people expect everyone to end up with someone eventually (surprise: NOT EVERYBODY DOES!), and second, what they’re saying is complete bullshit. Are they fucking psychic?? NO! They don’t know that I’ll find someone! I COULD DIE TOMORROW FOR ALL THEY KNOW!!

It was only very recently (within the last year) that I began to accept being single. That maybe I should sort my own damn life out before I even think to include someone else in it. I don’t HAVE to be in a relationship to be happy. If it happens, fantastic. If it doesn’t, that’s okay too, I can deal with it. I HAVE been dealing with it my whole damn life.

I’ve got PLENTY of other issues to deal with without worrying about finding a potential mate.

FrostIron Prompt #2

I keep having ideas for FrostIron fics, but I’m not a great writer, so I’ve decided to post some of them on here as prompts. Please, if you like this idea, feel free to take it and do whatever you want with it (then please send me the link for it when it’s done because I’d love to see it!)

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Tired of never getting what he wants, Loki casts a spell to bring him happiness, but all it brings him is Tony Stark.

FrostIron Prompt #1

goddamnhella:

morbid-undead:

I keep having ideas for FrostIron fics, but I’m not a great writer, so I’ve decided to post some of them on here as prompts. Please, if you like this idea, feel free to take it and do whatever you want with it (then please send me the link for it when it’s done because I’d love to see it!)

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Hella wrote a little something from my FrostIron fic prompt!! I’M SO HAPPY :D

FrostIron Prompt #1

I keep having ideas for FrostIron fics, but I’m not a great writer, so I’ve decided to post some of them on here as prompts. Please, if you like this idea, feel free to take it and do whatever you want with it (then please send me the link for it when it’s done because I’d love to see it!)

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Loki’s punishment after invading New York is banishment to Midgard, trapped in the form of a black wolf. He wanders alone throughout North America until one day he comes across a cabin in the middle of nowhere. Lo and behold, the owner of said cabin is none other than Tony Stark. He’s currently gathering some chopped wood to bring inside when their eyes meet. Tony freezes in place. Loki is suddenly feeling mischievous. Whenever the mortal goes to slowly move towards the cabin door, Loki pounces forward, causing the mortal to freeze in place again. They do this until Loki is standing between Tony and the door. Loki then wanders into the cabin, settling down on the couch like he owns the place.

Tony is understandably quite shocked. He cautiously enters the cabin, staring at Loki (who he obviously thinks is just a wolf at this point) in disbelief. Upon talking to the wolf (not expecting an answer), he is shocked once again when Loki nods or shakes his wolfy head in answer to Tony’s questions. He lets the wolf stay in the cabin (as if he’d be able to get him out anyway) upon the promise that he won’t try to eat Tony at any point, or tear him to pieces. Despite the company, Loki is happy to be able to spend some time indoors, at least for a while.

Tony drinks a lot. Talks a lot, too. Loki kind of regrets letting Tony know that he can understand what he’s saying. Eventually he gets drunk enough that he tells Loki what he’s doing out there in the middle of nowhere. Pepper was killed and SHIELD was responsible. Tony, consumed by his need for vengeance, brought them down. He killed a bunch of people in the process. Now the other Avengers and what’s left of SHIELD are after him, hence why he’s hiding out.

In his time in the cabin, Tony and Loki form a sort of bond. Loki decides that he likes the mortal. People will end up coming for Tony, and Loki is a little bit protective and tries to help him in any way he can.

From there, who knows? This is why I haven’t written it myself, I don’t know where to go from here. Tony will eventually find out that the wolf is Loki, and Loki will eventually change back to human and they are attracted to each other and they totally get it on, but I just don’t know HOW.

It was then that the boy understood that his hero’s true injuries lay hidden in a darker place. His heart, once capable of inspiring others so completely, could no longer inspire so much as itself. It beat now only out of habit. It beat now only because it could.
Wonderboys